Saturday, August 23, 2008

How?

Hello.... how do you start these blog things anyway?

Well here we are, another infertile morning in the peardream house. As anyone reading this that's dealt with infertility knows, there are good days and bad days. Unfortunately I have had too many bad days lately, my head and heart are in a dark place as the realization of conceiving a baby the good old fashion way is wearing down the person I am. I'm not usually a dark person so this is hard to deal with. I'm usually a happy go lucky go with the flow type of person, I can't go with this flow though.

Not only does a couple battle with the fact at hand, infertility, but they battle with who to tell and how open to be. The day we opened up to a few friends and family was great and lifted a big weight off my shoulders but I can't seem to go back to those same people and open up about how I'm feeling now. It's a roadblock that I don't know how to break and that weight is back. How do you do that?