oh honey. i've been lurking on your blog (sorry, i should have said hello earlier) and i've been where you are. three times. it sucks. i'm so sorry. if you want to read a little bit of my story to see where we went next, check out riftraft[dot]jayandcarissa[dot]com. if you're interested in reading some of the more gritty bits, e-mail me and i'll invite you to the private version. you are not alone.
I wish I could be there to kneel on the floor with you and sob...I remember our last leg of the journey...and the day I found out it didn't take...
It's numbing.
We took six months off of everything. Basically just went to work and came home. Hid from friends, stopped going to church, and stepped down from all other responsibilities.
Do whatever you need to do to survive this monster.
I just got IVF#1 BFN this week too. I know how hard it was for us and this is not the end of our journey. (Just a long break).
I want you to know that I am thinking of you. I am pooman on the tttc board but since I don't post much I doubt you know me. Once I got my BFN I didn't want to see the board again for a long long time. You are the reason I snuck a peek. I truly wished you'd get your BFP.
It is tough right now, but it will get better. I hope.
Our wonderful life together started many years ago on New Years Eve. On October 15th 2005 we married, one of the happiest days of our lives with many happy days since. In October of 2006 I stopped taking birth control and we threw caution to the wind. October, our two year mark, came & went and still no glimmer of a "little pear". We know we will get there someday however it's meant to be. This is our day to day journey to that point.
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oh honey. i've been lurking on your blog (sorry, i should have said hello earlier) and i've been where you are. three times. it sucks. i'm so sorry. if you want to read a little bit of my story to see where we went next, check out riftraft[dot]jayandcarissa[dot]com. if you're interested in reading some of the more gritty bits, e-mail me and i'll invite you to the private version. you are not alone.
I wish I could be there to kneel on the floor with you and sob...I remember our last leg of the journey...and the day I found out it didn't take...
It's numbing.
We took six months off of everything. Basically just went to work and came home. Hid from friends, stopped going to church, and stepped down from all other responsibilities.
Do whatever you need to do to survive this monster.
I'm so sorry.
I'm so sorry...i was really hoping this would be it for you.It's just so unfair..:(
Kelli,
I just got IVF#1 BFN this week too. I know how hard it was for us and this is not the end of our journey. (Just a long break).
I want you to know that I am thinking of you. I am pooman on the tttc board but since I don't post much I doubt you know me. Once I got my BFN I didn't want to see the board again for a long long time. You are the reason I snuck a peek. I truly wished you'd get your BFP.
It is tough right now, but it will get better. I hope.
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