Hello.... how do you start these blog things anyway?
Well here we are, another infertile morning in the peardream house. As anyone reading this that's dealt with infertility knows, there are good days and bad days. Unfortunately I have had too many bad days lately, my head and heart are in a dark place as the realization of conceiving a baby the good old fashion way is wearing down the person I am. I'm not usually a dark person so this is hard to deal with. I'm usually a happy go lucky go with the flow type of person, I can't go with this flow though.
Not only does a couple battle with the fact at hand, infertility, but they battle with who to tell and how open to be. The day we opened up to a few friends and family was great and lifted a big weight off my shoulders but I can't seem to go back to those same people and open up about how I'm feeling now. It's a roadblock that I don't know how to break and that weight is back. How do you do that?
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The journey to parenthood through the eyes of an infertile couple.
Our Journey
Our wonderful life together started many years ago on New Years Eve. On October 15th 2005 we married, one of the happiest days of our lives with many happy days since. In October of 2006 I stopped taking birth control and we threw caution to the wind. October, our two year mark, came & went and still no glimmer of a "little pear". We know we will get there someday however it's meant to be. This is our day to day journey to that point.
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You are among friends. Truly. You will find yourself reading other infertility blogs and saying "That's EXACTLY how I feel!" It happens to me everyday! When I first started blogging I wrote very similar words. There is something about not being able to produce life that wears down the very threads of who you are. We've been walking this road for 4 years. 1 Year of that was full of infertility treatments and clinics, the last 4 months adoption. The person that writes this today is not the same person who opened the baby door 4 years ago. Thankfully, I've been walking the upside of this valley for several months now...but the days before, were the darkest I've ever known. There are definitely good days and bad days. Toward year 4, all of mine were bad. I only wish I had found this wonderful community of friends, years before. We're here for you! Be real, be raw, be you. We don't judge!
(Oh, and we kept our infertility quiet for a long time. But there came a point when I was sick and tired of people asking me when we were going to have a baby! The news slowly started leaking out, but it wasn't until we started the adoption process that I completely came out and told everyone)
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