At least that's kind of how I feel, I feel like we are starting all over and this is the begining. I just hope at the end of this journey there is a little one to some day share this story with.
This day has been a roller coaster of sorts. This morning before our first RE appointment I was nervous, more nervous than I get going for a job interview. I actually felt the same way I felt two and a half years ago when I stopped taking the pill....the oh my gosh are we really doing this what if it works what if we have a baby. Such a strange fear now considering we have been fighting for this for so long now.
As you know Matt and I had our first RE appointment today, it went well and I LOVE our doctor he was compassionate, knowledgeable, and very helpful, a perfect fit for us. I'm overwhelmed but hopeful. Matt and I will spend the better part of this weekend talking and deciding if to move on and if we do how quickly we will move along with this.
Basically with our age (we aren't old but we aren't young anymore), my "extreme endo", one ovary/tube, and Matt's low motility our doctor wants us to move directly to (IVF) with ICSI. I have to say honestly I wasn't prepared for that but he explained with our situation doing IUI using clomid we have a 5-6% chance, with IUI and injectibles a 15-16% chance and with IVF it's a 50%. IVF isn't easy, cheap, or a guarantee but apparently this is our chance at a family.
This whole 2 1/2 year process has been extremely draining not only on my emotional well being but on us as a couple. Our goal is to do what we can but come 2010 wherever we stand we will close this door in our life.
I really think I'm just in shock right now and like I said overwhelmed....I need a glass of wine and time to sit and absorb. Thanks for listening.
3 comments:
I remember being so hopeful when we first met with our RE. I hope that's how you felt, today!!!
Never give up!
I just wanted to wish you lots of luck. I'm sure your day did feel like a rollercoaster. There are so many things to consider. Good luck with everything!
I have been following your blog and I received the same news that you did earlier this week. Let me tell you what an emotional mess I was on Wednesday. It sucks. But, alas, we have a game plan, although a very expensive game plan, a game plan. Good luck and I will follow your journey!
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